in memory : love the last breath

memoryAs the sun began to set , unconsciously keep moving my feet and stepped into this place . Crossed my mind about him . He is always with me . The best friend who can not forget . He gave me something that I can never get again . when I wanted to say my request , I saw him with a girl . For some reason my body feels weak , like rice hit by strong winds . I went up to him , threw the book at them , " Now I will ask the petition , go away from my life and do not come back again , " I went out of the room and the tears did not stop flowing . I was devastated , I guess the world angry at me . When I began to realize that he is not just a friend , he was just with someone else . After that day I always get rid of it , I choose the opposite way with it . But I miss him , I miss all the things we live . My heart felt increasingly sick of all this . I found a letter in my table , " sorry " and the white rose .

 7 April , 2013, the day my birthday to 17. I find a big box at my front door , 

" Naya I do not know why you're upset but you waited in the park at 20:00 . Let us celebrate your birthday . I love you . Arland " I was surprised to read the letter and see towards wall clock shows 22:00 . I ran to the park , I saw from afar the beauty of lights decorate the park , rain drops add to my happiness . He waved his hand and ran towards me . Right in front of my eyes all that happened .

 On the way he opened his eyes and said , " Come to the park see how I decorate , I entrusted my father and mother . And I'm happy to do as you wish , so I do not break a promise , " My hands tightly handheld , I felt his hand touch my cheek . He smiled at me and closed her eyes slowly .I was crying uncontrollably , heard that I should not hear . It feels very sick can not be cured even with tears . Someone came up to me , gave the last letter from him .

" Happy brithday naya , happy birthday ya . Naya , I express all my feelings would not that I did not dare directly if only I fear no more time . I do not know when these feelings start to appear but when you're angry yesterday my heart hurt . Although not seven requests but I never thought you asked me to stay away from you . Honestly I can not do that naya . I can only get away from you if God has called me and when it does promise you will continue to live happily . From there I'll take care of you . In due time I hope you prepare your heart , do not let him destroyed . You should know that when a bright cloud to rain and after that beautiful rainbow appeared , Believe it in your heart . Happiness , love , grief , and the wound package , without it you will not feel the real life . When you fear your hand tightly mobile presence felt in the heart . I watch you from afar . If you fall get up again because I will send the power from there . If you want to cry , I'll cry tears of capacity and I bear your burden from there . While I'm away I 'll not leave you alone because I will always be in your heart . All that happened between us remember everything . I hope you never forget me . Remain live your life as normal and smile with that I can rest there . I entrusted my father and mother . Take care of yourself well , do not forget to eat , worship , and occasionally came mengujungiku later , "
My heart cried reading it , I reinforced my steps to the garden . Flowers are arranged neatly and tied balloons strong there , broken cake soaked heavy rain made ​​me even more goosebumps . I closed the eyes , imagine me if the accident had not happened I would be the happiest woman that day . Sad it feels to lose a loved one forever . He has indeed been granted me , but this is not what I want. I open the big box that I got that night , a photo album and a camera with a letter . " This album is partially charged , just like life that has been partially filled by me . And this is the camera that will help fill a new life . I was the one who was always there in your memories , but they are the future in real life . Here I will try to make all your dreams come true. Arland affectionate greetings . "

Now I have a new life with new things . The contents of my album with beautiful things I 've ever passed . But one thing you need to know every time on 7 April rain always down and a beautiful rainbow appeared .

 I've never been afraid to go any further because with it I can feel his presence . Together with the wind I sent her a letter ." Thank you for being my strength . I miss you, Arland "

 - tell your feeling in your heart before it 's too late . If your love is unrequited Relax lah he even took off our loved ones is difficult and unreasonable but we can still continue to love to see him happy . 
- If you believe in love then you must also believe in his heart , because the heart is never wrong , he's honest and clean without suspicion without prejudice so do not believe what you see before stating your heart is true .